On an active imagination

I find it insanely difficult to meet new people and barge in on groups. Seem to have a very active imagination of what will be said about me. And when I do not barge in, I have this conviction that now it is "she is so bad with mingling with new crowd".

Active imagination = whole lot of alone time.
A lot of time alone = more active imagination.

What a rut...

I guess most loners don't really want to be alone. They probably spend their time over-thinking every action and end up not doing anything. Oh well.